Big Bad Badger

Lynxi hired!

Oh, so that's where the Manners were! I'll be honest, I went on a wild goose chase looking for them.
Thanks!  

I got you!
 

The truth is I got sick of seeing Prole's name and avi every time I logged in.  So I just posted something snarky to get it off.  

PD, Westwind, and Eli, I'm very sorry for your losses. I lost a very close friend in 2013, and it still hurts every day, though less now than it did before. My mother is also severely disabled and 62 now, and I know we may not have many more years left together, though I hope for as many as I can get. You're so right about enjoying the time we have with our loved ones.
Please know that you have a community here that cares about you, not just TWP but the NationStates community in general, and you're in our thoughts.

Yes Don I did see the trauma that unfolded with your Father's sudden passing and silently wished you and your family the best as they dealt with the emotional flood all that entails.
Westy I had heard via the grapevine of old NS players that you too were enduring/living that end of life experience with your father.
 
Like you all I have lived that lately, in 2014 with my father and 2015 with my mother, it is the emotional gamut from pride in lives well done to anguish that you never get to discuss the mundane happenings of day to day life with those that gave that wonderful gift to you.
Lessons learned, love multiplied and passed on. I for one feel lucky to have been the recipient of their wisdom and affection.
Life is good, life is sad sometimes, I think I'll call my daughter...
 
 

Offshore Racing,
Take care man, it has been a pleasure to get to know and work with you!
Peace,
B

Offshore Racing,
Take care man, it has been a pleasure to get to know and work with you!
Peace,
B

In your case, I think that get a free trebuchet ride is more appropriate.

In your case, I think that get a free trebuchet ride is more appropriate.

*hugs*
I am so sorry for your loss and troubles PD. I truly am.   Thank you for sharing.
Apparently August was a bad month for us. I lost my father on August 14th. Long suffering from Heart Failure and Kidney Failure, it's good the suffering is over, it was an ugly death, they said it's worse suffering than cancer. I'd been taking care of him since May, once he could no longer walk or stand. His final decline began last November. He was the only person that I talked to on the phone, we were our last family connection. Everyone else was gone. He was the last of his generation. Now, my daughter and I are the last of my immediate family, the end of my surname.  My world is much emptier now. It's strange that the phone no longer rings from his calling, and he's no longer there to share things we would. I've lost 17  friends and family members in two years. Oldest was 82, youngest was 28. Several in my age range among those gone. Parents, half-brother, cousins, high school friends, college friends, gone. I can count the few distant family members on one hand, most I haven't seen in 30 or 40 years. I always knew I'd have to watch everyone else die, but never expected it to happen so soon or so fast. I don't think of myself as old, though my daughter keeps telling me I am. There's not much left of my interpersonal world. And now I'm picking up the peices of their lives, before I can create a new life for myself. I am the repository of all the family history, all the family memories. Things like the bronzed baby shoes of my great grandmother. The gold nugget my great-great grandfather found in Alaska. Notes from ancestors that are unsigned, who knows who wrote them. My grandparents school grade reports, etc etc. I have memories of my great-grandparents, I knew a Civil War veteran that was captured and interred in a Confererate POW camp.  (He said the prisoners were fed as well as the guards.....poorly.  They ate grasshoppers.) It ends with me. My daughter didn't know our family, doesn't have the memories, and someday she will marry, and I will be the last of my name.
All those memories lost, like tears in the rain - Bladerunner
But I am trying not to live a self-pity party. Life goes on.
These are tough times. I have all that was left behind, a massive amount of work to take care of it all, sort it all, figure out what to do with it all.  By myself, and for what purpose? It's a little lonely to be honest. And difficult given my disabilities/health. Many months of sorting things out lie ahead.
But, I am not grieving as badly as I expected. I grieved throughout his suffering, so the end was a moment of peace and relief. I heard the death rattle, watched his last breath.He did not fear death, it was not his nature. Nor did he want to be mourned. He did have a day of tears and regrets a few days before he passed. Both my parents before they died made a point of making sure I knew that they felt they lived a good life, were satisfied, and were proud of me. Grief is a very personal thing, and we all must travel that path in our own way. Let no one tell you how to grieve.
I was not satisfied with the obit that I wrote, but it was fine, others have complimented me on it.  It's just that it's impossible to summarize a life in a paragraph. It's so insufficient, yet what more can you do? 
I like these lyrics....
...father, I'm in need of your hand
so I can face the world bravely
and father, do you understand
what it is you mean to me

Like a warrior you always conquered
every battle you had to face
And through the hard times
when life was a bitter fight
it's you who would give
so unselfish you lived
A tribute to the world that blood
Is thicker than water

I'm tryin' to say that I love you
I'm tryin' to say that I miss you 
Oh, father   I'll leave a paraphrased a note for everyone else, it's an old saying:
Enjoy and appreciate those close to you as long as you can. You never know when the Universe might need them back.
*hugs, cries*

The origin of the name punk daddy begins in 1992.
 I was a 14 year old kid who loved to act and was acting in my first High School play. I was very insecure this particular year and there were some girls I liked who were making fun of me. Playful fun but I told them, “well you know what they say about black guys, right?” For those that don’t know, “they” say black guys are well endowed. From there I gained the nickname, Big Don. “Don” is PD’s real first name.
In my junior year, I played the role of Daddy in a play, was way more secure in myself, and those same girls changed my nickname to Big Daddy. When I went to college I joined a web chat as Big Daddy. However, I was very precocious as gained a nickname – Punk Daddy – from the older folks who thought I was just a kid who should go back to school and not talk to them about matters of the day.
I like Big Don, Big Daddy, but I liked Punk Daddy the most because I felt like most people in my world wouldn’t associate me with that name. And I like being different. So when I joined NS back in 2004, I had been using Punk Daddy for years and it became my first nation name.
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This post isn’t really about my name but about punk daddy’s daddy. He passed away on August 21st. I’d venture to guess that both Darkesia and Eli are aware as they are my friends on Facebook. It was a pulmonary embolism that took him out. From the moment he woke my stepmom to tell her he was having trouble breathing to the moment he died was about 40-45 minutes. I did some reading on massive embolisms and they strike suddenly and they are not easy to treat once symptoms start showing.
In the days prior to my dad passing away I had texted him this “I want you to live to see that day” regarding seeing me, his son, reach a particular level of financial success he and my mom had tried to attain (and failed) back in the early 90s. He didn’t respond to that text which wasn’t unusual, so don’t read too much into that. My last text to him was “TGIF!”, it’s funny that’s the last message I sent to my father.
He was my best friend. He could tell me things others couldn’t. As the oldest son, I took on the responsibility of writing his obituary. It was not easy but I knew that I had to do it. The final result was something I’m sure he would have enjoyed.
I’ve also had bad job news and my oldest son is also having some health issues. It’s been a trying time. But my head is still up and I wanted to share with you all where I was.
PD

The truth is I got sick of seeing Prole's name and avi every time I logged in.  So I just posted something snarky to get it off.  

The truth is I got sick of seeing Prole's name and avi every time I logged in.  So I just posted something snarky to get it off.  

The truth is I got sick of seeing Prole's name and avi every time I logged in.  So I just posted something snarky to get it off.  

I will get it.  

I got them masked.  Emoji added!
 

Just ask me to mask someone, then you will see my best Halo impression.

I approve of the above message!

Greetings TWP,
Today I want to make the region aware of a situation that came up earlier this week after I had our treaty with the Kingdom of Great Britain repealed and our embassy withdrawn.  The King and his Curia have threatened TWP and Osiris with war, intend to see our downfall.  Furthermore, they have attempted to undermine Europeia.
Several months ago it was discovered that the King Alexander, who otherwise goes by Don, is a pathological liar IC and OOC and an all around manipulative bastard.  He lied about RL situations in order to gain sympathy and manipulate people in his region.  This caused myself and others to leave the region and disassociate ourselves from KGB.  However, we still had this treaty; which I was ok with provided more lies and deceit didn't surface.  A few weeks ago it was discovered that Don was bringing back into KGB a nation known for harassing and bullying behavior who penned this apology letter:  https://forum.nationstates.net/viewtopic.php?f=12&t=421555   Knowing first hand what had occurred, I could not in good faith allow TWP to be associated with this individual or any region that harbors him.  So after discussing this with the guardians, I decided to act quickly and dissolve our relationship with KGB.
Earlier this week, one of our operatives sent me a long line of logs.  The relevant ones can be found here:  https://imgur.com/a/MZm7P
After laughing voraciously at their thinking that they could coup TWP, I informed our friends in Europeia, Vice Chancellor Brunhilde and director of intel NES of the potential security breech.  They have made sure that Europeia is secure.  The newly elected President, Cat has decided to step down for her part in this.  
When these logs became public a few hours ago, the king has decided to abdicate the throne and quit NS.  Don being a manipulative liar, I am sure will resurface soon.  When he does, I ask that you remember what he has said about TWP and the intentions of his council.  
None of these people:  Don Mountbatten (former king Alexander), Victor Lancaster (the new king William Victor I), Charles Lancaster, Cephal (Cornelius Tallyrand), and John Mountbatten should be forgotten for their role in attempting to subvert TWP and our allies.  We will not work with KGB or the above individuals in any fashion.  I would ask our allies to do the same.  They are not to be trusted!
When I first began diplomacy with KGB last spring, I was pleasantly surprised by the terrific people in the region.  Many of them have chosen to come to TWP over the past few months to see what we have going on here, even becoming actively involved in our TWP community.  Several were actively involved in getting this information to me as they understood the King was making poor choices.  Those of you who have come here from KGB, I hold no ill will towards any of you and ask TWP to do the same.  However, the individuals with the King in the Curia; I do hold you responsible for your statements and actions.
Hail TWP!
Badger

I approve of the above message!

Greetings TWP,
Today I want to make the region aware of a situation that came up earlier this week after I had our treaty with the Kingdom of Great Britain repealed and our embassy withdrawn.  The King and his Curia have threatened TWP and Osiris with war, intend to see our downfall.  Furthermore, they have attempted to undermine Europeia.
Several months ago it was discovered that the King Alexander, who otherwise goes by Don, is a pathological liar IC and OOC and an all around manipulative bastard.  He lied about RL situations in order to gain sympathy and manipulate people in his region.  This caused myself and others to leave the region and disassociate ourselves from KGB.  However, we still had this treaty; which I was ok with provided more lies and deceit didn't surface.  A few weeks ago it was discovered that Don was bringing back into KGB a nation known for harassing and bullying behavior who penned this apology letter:  https://forum.nationstates.net/viewtopic.php?f=12&t=421555   Knowing first hand what had occurred, I could not in good faith allow TWP to be associated with this individual or any region that harbors him.  So after discussing this with the guardians, I decided to act quickly and dissolve our relationship with KGB.
Earlier this week, one of our operatives sent me a long line of logs.  The relevant ones can be found here:  https://imgur.com/a/MZm7P
After laughing voraciously at their thinking that they could coup TWP, I informed our friends in Europeia, Vice Chancellor Brunhilde and director of intel NES of the potential security breech.  They have made sure that Europeia is secure.  The newly elected President, Cat has decided to step down for her part in this.  
When these logs became public a few hours ago, the king has decided to abdicate the throne and quit NS.  Don being a manipulative liar, I am sure will resurface soon.  When he does, I ask that you remember what he has said about TWP and the intentions of his council.  
None of these people:  Don Mountbatten (former king Alexander), Victor Lancaster (the new king William Victor I), Charles Lancaster, Cephal (Cornelius Tallyrand), and John Mountbatten should be forgotten for their role in attempting to subvert TWP and our allies.  We will not work with KGB or the above individuals in any fashion.  I would ask our allies to do the same.  They are not to be trusted!
When I first began diplomacy with KGB last spring, I was pleasantly surprised by the terrific people in the region.  Many of them have chosen to come to TWP over the past few months to see what we have going on here, even becoming actively involved in our TWP community.  Several were actively involved in getting this information to me as they understood the King was making poor choices.  Those of you who have come here from KGB, I hold no ill will towards any of you and ask TWP to do the same.  However, the individuals with the King in the Curia; I do hold you responsible for your statements and actions.
Hail TWP!
Badger

Greetings TWP,
Today I want to make the region aware of a situation that came up earlier this week after I had our treaty with the Kingdom of Great Britain repealed and our embassy withdrawn.  The King and his Curia have threatened TWP and Osiris with war, intend to see our downfall.  Furthermore, they have attempted to undermine Europeia.
Several months ago it was discovered that the King Alexander, who otherwise goes by Don, is a pathological liar IC and OOC and an all around manipulative bastard.  He lied about RL situations in order to gain sympathy and manipulate people in his region.  This caused myself and others to leave the region and disassociate ourselves from KGB.  However, we still had this treaty; which I was ok with provided more lies and deceit didn't surface.  A few weeks ago it was discovered that Don was bringing back into KGB a nation known for harassing and bullying behavior who penned this apology letter:  https://forum.nationstates.net/viewtopic.php?f=12&t=421555   Knowing first hand what had occurred, I could not in good faith allow TWP to be associated with this individual or any region that harbors him.  So after discussing this with the guardians, I decided to act quickly and dissolve our relationship with KGB.
Earlier this week, one of our operatives sent me a long line of logs.  The relevant ones can be found here:  https://imgur.com/a/MZm7P
After laughing voraciously at their thinking that they could coup TWP, I informed our friends in Europeia, Vice Chancellor Brunhilde and director of intel NES of the potential security breech.  They have made sure that Europeia is secure.  The newly elected President, Cat has decided to step down for her part in this.  
When these logs became public a few hours ago, the king has decided to abdicate the throne and quit NS.  Don being a manipulative liar, I am sure will resurface soon.  When he does, I ask that you remember what he has said about TWP and the intentions of his council.  
None of these people:  Don Mountbatten (former king Alexander), Victor Lancaster (the new king William Victor I), Charles Lancaster, Cephal (Cornelius Tallyrand), and John Mountbatten should be forgotten for their role in attempting to subvert TWP and our allies.  We will not work with KGB or the above individuals in any fashion.  I would ask our allies to do the same.  They are not to be trusted!
When I first began diplomacy with KGB last spring, I was pleasantly surprised by the terrific people in the region.  Many of them have chosen to come to TWP over the past few months to see what we have going on here, even becoming actively involved in our TWP community.  Several were actively involved in getting this information to me as they understood the King was making poor choices.  Those of you who have come here from KGB, I hold no ill will towards any of you and ask TWP to do the same.  However, the individuals with the King in the Curia; I do hold you responsible for your statements and actions.
Hail TWP!
Badger

Approved!  So glad to have you here Imki!

Greetings TWP,
Today I want to make the region aware of a situation that came up earlier this week after I had our treaty with the Kingdom of Great Britain repealed and our embassy withdrawn.  The King and his Curia have threatened TWP and Osiris with war, intend to see our downfall.  Furthermore, they have attempted to undermine Europeia.
Several months ago it was discovered that the King Alexander, who otherwise goes by Don, is a pathological liar IC and OOC and an all around manipulative bastard.  He lied about RL situations in order to gain sympathy and manipulate people in his region.  This caused myself and others to leave the region and disassociate ourselves from KGB.  However, we still had this treaty; which I was ok with provided more lies and deceit didn't surface.  A few weeks ago it was discovered that Don was bringing back into KGB a nation known for harassing and bullying behavior who penned this apology letter:  https://forum.nationstates.net/viewtopic.php?f=12&t=421555   Knowing first hand what had occurred, I could not in good faith allow TWP to be associated with this individual or any region that harbors him.  So after discussing this with the guardians, I decided to act quickly and dissolve our relationship with KGB.
Earlier this week, one of our operatives sent me a long line of logs.  The relevant ones can be found here:  https://imgur.com/a/MZm7P
After laughing voraciously at their thinking that they could coup TWP, I informed our friends in Europeia, Vice Chancellor Brunhilde and director of intel NES of the potential security breech.  They have made sure that Europeia is secure.  The newly elected President, Cat has decided to step down for her part in this.  
When these logs became public a few hours ago, the king has decided to abdicate the throne and quit NS.  Don being a manipulative liar, I am sure will resurface soon.  When he does, I ask that you remember what he has said about TWP and the intentions of his council.  
None of these people:  Don Mountbatten (former king Alexander), Victor Lancaster (the new king William Victor I), Charles Lancaster, Cephal (Cornelius Tallyrand), and John Mountbatten should be forgotten for their role in attempting to subvert TWP and our allies.  We will not work with KGB or the above individuals in any fashion.  I would ask our allies to do the same.  They are not to be trusted!
When I first began diplomacy with KGB last spring, I was pleasantly surprised by the terrific people in the region.  Many of them have chosen to come to TWP over the past few months to see what we have going on here, even becoming actively involved in our TWP community.  Several were actively involved in getting this information to me as they understood the King was making poor choices.  Those of you who have come here from KGB, I hold no ill will towards any of you and ask TWP to do the same.  However, the individuals with the King in the Curia; I do hold you responsible for your statements and actions.
Hail TWP!
Badger