Sorry I'm just getting back to this.
Westie, reading through your post was emotional and I wasn't able to properly respond. I'm still not but thank you for sharing.
Eli, Cormac, and Dark...thank you. I wasn't able to write about my dad they way I wanted until the end of the year. I wrote about my mother too.
http://donroach.org/blog/2017/12/31/so-long-2017/
So far, in 2018 I've been making choices to "live" and it's been really good.